I don’t know. Am I disappointing you guys? Is it wrong to want to be happy instead of sticking with it and dreading and crying over it everyday? Am I that useless like you said, if i stop it will be like I have nothing left? Is it going to ruin my transcript and my resume like you said? Am I avoiding things? Is it wrong to do this? Is Satan getting to me? What does God want me to do now? Wait.. just wait.. maybe the sermon on Sunday was directed towards me. waiting is not wasted. Oh I don’t know…

That’s all I can say right now. Talking to parents, friends about the situation and I get mixed feelings, pros and cons. The final decisionis up to me and nobody can make my decision for me, but what do i want? Most importantly, what does God want?

There is a reason God put me through this, and I know there’s a lesson to be learnt and I am just waiting for the answer, there are so many thoughts going through my head I don’t know what to think first. I get rid of one thought and another comes into mind. I’m still trying to figure things out and already you put words into my mouth. Ugh.. I just want to figure things out with myself and God. This is not easy as you think it is, you don’t you are right, no matter what choice I make there is a lesson to be learnt, but telling me what that lesson is won’t help. One thing I have learnt in life is you learn from experiences and you telling me what’s wrong with me and what i should do better is just making me annoyed and more upset.

I love my friends and my teammates for sticking behind me and reassuring me that no matter what, they are behind me and will support my decision. I love you guys for that, you don’t know how much you mean to me.

I don’t know.. God guide me. lead me.

Cheers, Jo.

Happy Lunch.

Instead of bar hopping, jessy and I have discovered restaurant hopping, during lunch time and it’s quite alot of fun. We shared a six piece Peking Duck pizza at Pizza express, which was an interesting experience. It was actually not bad I have to say, but it just didn’t taste quite like Peking Duck. We still weren’t full by the end of the pizza, we wondered whether we should get something else from Pizza express but since we didn’t have much time left and the food takes a while to come out, we decided to go to Chilli N Spice to get some Thai food. We ordered the pork and vegetable beans, it came shortly after we ordered and we were happy.

By the end, I was so full it was hard to walk. It was like we had two lunch back to back. Jessy had to go to gymnastics right after and tumble upside down.. I sure hope she didn’t barf.  And I got to go home, sit on my arse and be lazy.

Who knew lunch can be so entertaining?

Cheers, Jo.

TGIF! Today’s been a relatively good day, I mean it is a friday. How can it not be good? Practice was cancelled today because, well a whole bunch of reasons but some of us still ran suicides and walls in the high school gym even though most of it was set up for the dance competition. I didn’t go to the dance competition but I went to Encounter, along with Jesse, Maggie, Corrie and Chris.

It was just what I needed, a group of students and youth leaders singing, worshiping, playing games and having fun and just chatting. After a long week of school, I didn’t need to stay in school. During worship, one of the songs we sang was “Consuming Fire”. If you know that song, one of the lines were “stir it up in my hearts Lord” and it repeats for a while. While the whole room was singing that, I sat there with my head down. I felt my heart being tugged, maybe it was God trying to stir my heart. Trying to find my heart. Trying to find my love for Him and telling me that I have to get focused after everything that’s been going on.

Tim talked to us about being the light of the world. Imagine one of your teachers coming up to you and said.. you’re the best student in this class. You’re the light of the class, I want you to teach everyone what you do. How would you feel? Special? I know I would.. I’d try not to be prideful but I would feel happy, feel like I belong. That’s what God’s telling us. We are the light of the world, we are called to go out and be an example.

We were also told about “Cream of the crop.” Which is based on the idea that cream is the best part of milk. So it is an idiom that talks about how we are the best in the particular group. And because we are the cream of the crop, we should not waste it on things that won’t matter in the long run. We spend so much time on technological things, msn, myspace, facebook, we don’t communicate face to face as much anymore. Many of us don’t, even though we are in the same country or state. If you don’t spend that much time on those things, or doing nothing at all, we can be spending that time with Christ, learning about Him, or spreading the gospel.

Today in existentialism class, we talked about how everything we do should besomething we want to do. something we understand. Before we have a goal, we should understand what we are learning or doing. We want to get into this or that university, but you work so hard to get into the university, did you really learn or understand what you did? If you didn’t get in, it’s not the end of the world is it? Life is short.. live it well.

Sorry if this entry seems a bit jumpy, I hope it made sense. It is quite late into the night and it’s been a long week. There are so many things I can write about… maybe next time. One last thing… ever thought of what JOY might mean?

Jesus
Others
Yourself

think about that.
Cheers, Jo.

Ever had a time where you had so much fun and you felt like nothing mattered? Corrie and I were talking yesterday about how much we miss the Care people and just people in general. A couple of weeks and I’ll be seeing some of them in the Philippines. I can’t wait, but these few weeks are going to be busy with teachers cramming all the homework and tests before the christmas break.

Here’s a couple of pictures.

This weekend is going to be a busy weekend.. with JRP, work and everything. Sigh. Hope you are all having a great week. A good friend is coming back this sunday for a few days.. I have missed him so much and I can’t wait to hang out with him. Yay!

Cheers, Jo.

A little late but Happy Thanksgiving nontheless. I didn’t get a chance to have a thanksgiving dinner so I am still craving for turkey but I don’t think I will be having it anytime soon. This whole weekend was spent at school, in the high school and middle school gym playing basketball.

This Thanksgiving holiday tournament was fun, we didn’t place very well but I think it was fun nontheless meeting new people, playing basketball and just hanging out. We’ve grown alot this tournament as a team, I have faith that we will be a very good team towards the end of the season. We will need to step up all together slowly as time passes, and by the time we know it, we will be on a plane to Beijing or Japan for another tournament.

I am proud of the boys. They have gone such a long way, undefeated until championship game. Both Faith Acadamy and HKIS varsity teams are amazing teams, they have amazing talent and they’ve got competition. The game was a heart breaker for us but it gave the audience a very exciting night. Congrats boys.

Thank you for all of you who came to support my team and I during the tournament. It will fun looking up into the stands and hearing all of you cheer for us whether we were playing well or not. It gave me more energy to show my audiences the talent that I have. Thank you again. It meant alot.

The Mayhugh’s left and went back to the Philippines last night, I had a chance to bring them to the airport express and saying good bye to them. I will miss them in Hong Kong. I miss the CARE staff in Hong Kong. Hopefully, I will see them soon. I am invited to Philippines for a mission trip in a couple of weeks and I am so blessed that I have this chance to go and see how God is working in the slums of Philippines. I am even more blessed that my parents will be going with me and I pray that God will work in them through this short weekend trip.

Here’s a few pictures from the past week or so.

A couple of weeks and we will be off on christmas holidays. I am so thankful, this semester hasn’t been too stressful and God has really kept my strength up with basketball and everything. I am so thankful for everyone I have met this semester, all my friends, new or old. Family. I hope you all had a great thanksgiving. It is always nice to think of all that we have in. Things that we won’t realize we have lost until we lose them.

Cheers, Jo.