How do you feel after eating? Eating good food? So tonight I ate with my parents in a japanese resturant near Sogo. It has only been only for a month or two and there was a discount of 20% off. We walked past and decided to go there.

It was a small place, but we ate so much. The sushi and sashimi was fresh and everything was good, yet small plates – As usual. Even though we were full, we kept eating and trying new food. It ended up being less than five hundred dollars which isn’t too bad considering the amount of food we ate.

We left and were walking to the car and I began to feel it. My eyes were closing on me and my legs were crashing. I was so tired and I was ready for bed. I guess that’s what eating good japanese food does to you. More japanese food tomorrow for lunch. Hynah.

Cheers, Jo!

“My name is Kieran. I am 16. I do brazilian ju-jit-su, so Don’t mess with me.” So that’s the start of my entry today. Today was a pretty good day, even though our coach worked us really hard today. I can barely walk around my house without having to limp a couple of steps. We all worked hard today and it’s good to have the wednesday off. And have a rest until the early morning practice on thursday.

Peer counseling is getting quite interesting. Today we had to make an equation with four words. I came up with Self Concept = (self esteem + self image = self confidence). Self Concept is actually quite similar to self image. Those words are all about learning about yourself, finding your patterns whether they are good or not, and breaking them. Throughout the course of the class today, I thought of some patterns that I have allowed to hurt me and bug me. But I have forgotten that I HAVE a choice.

There have been things for the past few weeks that have been on my mind and bothering me all the time. Have you ever wanted to wait for someone to talk to you or to call you? Well I’ve been in that mood for the past few days, especially to a couple of people. And if i don’t get any response or care from them, I immediatly jump to conclusion and think that they don’t care and I’m not important because they have someone closer to them that they are with all the time – aka. boyfriend. This is not a solution, having myself be bothered by this and getting annoyed because she is not talking to me will not help myself. Maybe those people don’t notice that you’re trying to do that?

Breaking the pattern will involve friends reminding me that if I am there for them, they will notice what they are missing when they weren’t paying attention to me. It will involve putting aside those feelings of wanting them to talk to you first and make the first move. No matter how much they neglect you, they will realize that you are there for them no matter what – but the other person might leave.

My mind is not functioning very well right now so I should get some rest. But I hope that made sense, it should be interesting reading what I have wrote the next time I feel that way and/or the next time I fall into the same pattern again.

HKIS students – one more day of school until a four day weekend! Hang in there.

Cheers Jo!

Where do I start? It’s been a long day. The Sanctuary was good. I wish I could’ve been more focused though, I just couldn’t get my head around it, thank you to all the organizers though!

It’s been a while since I have cried over a basketball game that we won, by a big number. Today was the first game of the season, maybe that’s an excuse, but we played horrible. The JV girls wanted it, they had nothing to lose and they gave it their best. They played well. We didn’t. The Lady Dragons first game was a bad start, Coach as well as the players would agree.

Sitting at the back of the Sanctuary after the game, I calmed down a little bit, but tears started to fall. I was disappointed in the team, I was mad at the Coach, but most of all, I was disappointed and mad at myself. I didn’t give it my best, I could’ve done so much more on the court tonight.  I went down to sit in the tables in the fifth floor and spent some time alone. I was breaking down, I didn’t know what to do. I know the solution would just to try harder and do better next time. But it’s not that easy and it was hard going through it myself.
I stared up into the moon and the sky – and I suddenly saw God smiling down at me. I heard him say “Come to me, don’t worry everything will be okay.” and felt a sudden comfort. I had God by my side, it didn’t matter what happened or what was going to happen, I know God will always be there by my side with open arms just waiting for us to run to him when we’re happy or sad.

When I have calmed down and was on my way back to the gym. God allowed me to bump into Daughin, he insisted on me telling him what’s wrong. There were people I just didn’t want to see or talk to, but I needed someone. I wanted someone to could just be next to me and listen. Listen to me cry, listen to my ramblings and still love me for who I am. I was trying to hold back my tears but I knew Daughin was that someone God has put in front of me, I knew he was there for me and he would comfort me no matter what. Despite my mood then, I was happy to see him. He comforted me in ways no one else could’ve at that time. I know God was working through him. Nontheless, thank you Daughin.

I cannot even start to imagine what practice will be like this coming week.  He will run us, he will push us like no other. We don’t have a choice so why not make the best out of it and show him what we’re capable of. It’s been a long night and during these times, know how to pick yourself back up. Learn from it, and move on. – Don’t forget, God is there with us during laughter, during sorrow even though it might not seem like it. Tonight, I broke down but yet I still felt God’s presense in me.

Cheers Jo!

It’s amazing how drained emotionally and phsycically you can be after a week. This has been a short week too, but it has seems like forever, for many reasons. I have a busy weekend ahead of me, should be a good weekend as well.

This past week, I’ve gone through different emotions, some that I still struggle with every day. But I am starting to come to terms very slowly that it’s going to be the way it is for some time. No matter what, I shouldn’t let it get to me and just live life because it’s great!

Tomorrow is the Annual Christian Youth Conference, this year called the Sanctuary. I have been every year and it’s a great place to not think about school work, and just praise Christ with a gym full of people. My first basketball game of the season is also tomorrow at 6:30. We are playing against the Junior Varsity team of our school. There will be lots of pressure for us, but it should be a fun game. I am getting more and more excited about this season as time goes past. I keep reminding myself how great it feels winning games, being the championship of tournaments. We will have a game at 6:30 every saturday for the next few weeks, so come support The Lady Dragons!

Jon is back and it is good to have him back. To have someone to call, talk to and to get reassurance for the things that I do. To have someone make me laugh and to say Hynah again. It’s been a while, that word’s been lonely. Steam?

I promise I will write something better tomorrow, but for now you’ll just have to stick with hearing about my agenda for my day! Hope you are all doing good.

Cheers Jo!

 Picture of the day:

Isn’t that beautiful? I thought so. I woke up one morning grumpy and tired then I went to my balcony to get some clothes and looked out and this was the beautiful sight. It brightened up my day, I kept showing my friends this picture and saying “isn’t that awesome?” It’s sights like these that make Hong Kong such a beautiful city. When I go to the US or Canada, I definetly love the sunrise and sunsight, the blue sky and the great air that it has but no matter what, it will not compare to Hong Kong.

Today during Peer counseling class, one of the things we talked about were Emotions over Thinking and Actions. E/TA. You can call me a freak all you want, but I think this class is cool. There’s less than 10 people in the class and we just sit in a small circle every class and just talk about helping others, our emotions, etc. If you know me well enough, you would know that I love talking about this kind of stuff. The smallest thing can affect me in big ways. How many times have we done something because our emotions causes us to – before thinking of what we’re doing? I know I’ve done it loads of times and then I regret it later. Sometimes it can lead us to do amazing things, but alot of times, it hurts someone or even your own self. it’s hard not to let your emotions do your thinking, but it is one of the things that hurt us the most. So all these leads to…

Tip of the day: When you get angry or frustrated and want to do something you normally wouldnt, to calm down.. hold your breath – count to 6 seconds and deep breath.

Quote of the day: “If you walk by yourself, the road seems to be bumpy and long; but if you walk with company, even the most difficult road becomes smooth and seems to be shorten.”