God’s presence

Where do I start? It’s been a long day. The Sanctuary was good. I wish I could’ve been more focused though, I just couldn’t get my head around it, thank you to all the organizers though!

It’s been a while since I have cried over a basketball game that we won, by a big number. Today was the first game of the season, maybe that’s an excuse, but we played horrible. The JV girls wanted it, they had nothing to lose and they gave it their best. They played well. We didn’t. The Lady Dragons first game was a bad start, Coach as well as the players would agree.

Sitting at the back of the Sanctuary after the game, I calmed down a little bit, but tears started to fall. I was disappointed in the team, I was mad at the Coach, but most of all, I was disappointed and mad at myself. I didn’t give it my best, I could’ve done so much more on the court tonight.  I went down to sit in the tables in the fifth floor and spent some time alone. I was breaking down, I didn’t know what to do. I know the solution would just to try harder and do better next time. But it’s not that easy and it was hard going through it myself.
I stared up into the moon and the sky – and I suddenly saw God smiling down at me. I heard him say “Come to me, don’t worry everything will be okay.” and felt a sudden comfort. I had God by my side, it didn’t matter what happened or what was going to happen, I know God will always be there by my side with open arms just waiting for us to run to him when we’re happy or sad.

When I have calmed down and was on my way back to the gym. God allowed me to bump into Daughin, he insisted on me telling him what’s wrong. There were people I just didn’t want to see or talk to, but I needed someone. I wanted someone to could just be next to me and listen. Listen to me cry, listen to my ramblings and still love me for who I am. I was trying to hold back my tears but I knew Daughin was that someone God has put in front of me, I knew he was there for me and he would comfort me no matter what. Despite my mood then, I was happy to see him. He comforted me in ways no one else could’ve at that time. I know God was working through him. Nontheless, thank you Daughin.

I cannot even start to imagine what practice will be like this coming week.  He will run us, he will push us like no other. We don’t have a choice so why not make the best out of it and show him what we’re capable of. It’s been a long night and during these times, know how to pick yourself back up. Learn from it, and move on. – Don’t forget, God is there with us during laughter, during sorrow even though it might not seem like it. Tonight, I broke down but yet I still felt God’s presense in me.

Cheers Jo!

6 thoughts on “God’s presence

  1. nance says:

    hey dear 🙂

    please don’t be too upset.. dont’ be too hard on yourself yeah? I mean i know you guys try to impress your coach and stuff – but i’m sure deep down he’s really proud of you guys etc… like for real i’m so serious.. that’s how coaches are. and i think you’ll become a better player for how he tries to toughen you guys up.

    but man i really know you’re good at basketball..haha and it’s only first game.

    i’m glad you had fun at the sanctuary..sorry i codn’t see you! next time theres a church thing, i’ll be sure to *bump* into you.

    sry really brief comment but i DID read the whole blog
    xoxo
    nancy

  2. Adriel says:

    heyyy! man isnt it funny how God doesnt always speak to you through sermons and stuff, even when you’re THERE at church or at a youth conference or whatever? I’m so, so, so glad that God’s speaking to you and that you’re learning from Him in everyday situations =) take care and I’ll seeya soon!!

  3. Cor says:

    hey jo,
    wow i didn’t know this was going on with you on saturday. when i did say hi to you before you left, i notice something was up. anyways, i’m glad daughin was there for you, i wish i was too. God does amazing things, He really does. Allow Him to work wonders in your life when things get discouraging and tough. that’s what He is there for. i love you jo! and i’m sorry i haven’t been here for you, i realized that yesterday. so here i am alright!
    love
    – cor

  4. nanda says:

    as i said i would say. good morning starshine! the earth says hello! i think…you need to watch some charlie and the chocolate factory. or mindless humor. it always works out. ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU phone = always on. even in the middle of the day as we found out last year. walking to math. hahaha see good times. dont always look at the bad. you’ll learn from the bad. even if you dont want to. like..i’ve learned to love it here. taken a while but i really have and it’d be SO hard to leave

  5. Daughin says:

    Whhhaaa…leng mui…thanx for the compliment…just doin’ what comes natural…I think I got in trouble though…cuz people wanted me to be packing up…oh well…some things are just worth the trouble…

    Remember don’t put things in your bag that aren’t yours!

    Peace…

  6. nanda says:

    oh yes i got this from a friend. it might make you smile.

    THINGS THAT MAKE LIFE WORTH LIVING:
    Falling in love. Hearing your favorite song on the radio. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside. Milkshakes. Bubble baths. Giggling. Long convos late at night. The beach. Running through sprinklers. Laughing at an inside joke. Laughing at yourself. Laughing so hard your stomach hurts. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all. Just plain laughing. Having someone tell you that you’re beautiful. Friends. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep. First kisses. Making new friends or spending time with old ones. Playing with a new puppy. Sweet dreams. Hot chocolate. Road trips with friends. Making chocolate chip cookies. Holding hands with someone you care about. Watching the sunrise. Watching a sunset. Getting out of bed in the morning after sleeping in and looking out the window to see its sunny, birds are chirping, and kids are playing. Knowing that somebody misses you. Getting a hug from someone you care about deeply. Knowing you’ve done the right thing, no matter what other people think.Being in the arms of the one you love. Getting all pretty. Walking in the rain. Dancing in the rain. Kissing in the rain. The rain. Receiving roses. The first snow of the winter. Eating ice-cream and crying to a chick-flick. Going to the movies. Making a fool of yourself and not caring because youre having too much fun. Fridays. Saying I love you. Hearing I love you. Cuddling. Pictures that remind you of good memories. Good memories that you think back to and start to smile

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