Where do I start? It’s been a long day. The Sanctuary was good. I wish I could’ve been more focused though, I just couldn’t get my head around it, thank you to all the organizers though!
It’s been a while since I have cried over a basketball game that we won, by a big number. Today was the first game of the season, maybe that’s an excuse, but we played horrible. The JV girls wanted it, they had nothing to lose and they gave it their best. They played well. We didn’t. The Lady Dragons first game was a bad start, Coach as well as the players would agree.
Sitting at the back of the Sanctuary after the game, I calmed down a little bit, but tears started to fall. I was disappointed in the team, I was mad at the Coach, but most of all, I was disappointed and mad at myself. I didn’t give it my best, I could’ve done so much more on the court tonight. I went down to sit in the tables in the fifth floor and spent some time alone. I was breaking down, I didn’t know what to do. I know the solution would just to try harder and do better next time. But it’s not that easy and it was hard going through it myself.
I stared up into the moon and the sky – and I suddenly saw God smiling down at me. I heard him say “Come to me, don’t worry everything will be okay.” and felt a sudden comfort. I had God by my side, it didn’t matter what happened or what was going to happen, I know God will always be there by my side with open arms just waiting for us to run to him when we’re happy or sad.
When I have calmed down and was on my way back to the gym. God allowed me to bump into Daughin, he insisted on me telling him what’s wrong. There were people I just didn’t want to see or talk to, but I needed someone. I wanted someone to could just be next to me and listen. Listen to me cry, listen to my ramblings and still love me for who I am. I was trying to hold back my tears but I knew Daughin was that someone God has put in front of me, I knew he was there for me and he would comfort me no matter what. Despite my mood then, I was happy to see him. He comforted me in ways no one else could’ve at that time. I know God was working through him. Nontheless, thank you Daughin.
I cannot even start to imagine what practice will be like this coming week. He will run us, he will push us like no other. We don’t have a choice so why not make the best out of it and show him what we’re capable of. It’s been a long night and during these times, know how to pick yourself back up. Learn from it, and move on. – Don’t forget, God is there with us during laughter, during sorrow even though it might not seem like it. Tonight, I broke down but yet I still felt God’s presense in me.