Happy Halloween!

How’s everyone doing? Happy Halloween! There were quite a few people who dressed up to school today and it was quite entertaining. It was definitly fun to see a ninja turtle this morning before even going to school. Maybe I’ll get to sleep early tonight since I have a break from basketball practice tomorrow and I will have more time to do my homework.

How many times have you heard just trust in God, things will work out in the end? I know I’ve heard it more than I can count but everytime it somehow fades away in my mind. I was worried, I was disappointed with myself with what I have done and I was stressing over it because I didn’t know what to do. I was jumping back and forth between the two decisions because even I didn’t even know what I wanted to do. I felt people being disappointed in me and that didn’t help. One minute, I didn’t feel well at all, but the next everything changed.

A friend of mine who I rarely talk to first reassured me that it’s not as bad as I thought, that she understood and it’s not such a big deal then suggested to replace me for the skit if I couldn’t do it. It’s alot to ask to have her memorize a thirty page skit in just a couple of days but she was willing to and that is a miracle. I cannot thank her enough.

God is our helper, our savior and comforts us in all ways possible. We just have to trust in Him and know that things are out of our control, he has planned everything.

He also puts people in our life that will be able to help us to comfort us. Being able to send an email to someone just plainly saying “I don’t know what to do.” and having recieve an email back saying “Don’t worry about it, I understand and I agree you should do this.” I was first afraid of reading the email, I didn’t know what he would say but after reading it, I felt so much better.

Call to the Lord andHe will answer you Psalm 16.8

Cheers Jo!

needing guidance

I’m feeling confused, lost. I don’t know what to do. There are two things that I care about alot. I have made a commitment to one and the other I feel like I should not miss. My friends keep reminding me that I have made a commitment to it and that I should not back out, especially when it’s coming so close. But having my team and my own consiousness telling me that it would be the worse thing to do to miss the first game of the season does not help.

I need some guidance with what to do. I need God to lead me to do the right thing. What is the right thing? Only God will know and only i will be able to make the final decision. Either way, it will be bad so what know? Keep praying.

It was good to be able to talk to Hynah about it. He will be back in a few days and I’m happy. It has been so long. Someone to be there for me, to tell me what to do, without being bitter about it. Thanks hynah for comforting me and reassuring me everything will be okay. It is good to know someone will be praying for me.

Cheers Jo!

Where do I start? Be Warned.

Warning: This is going to be a long entry considering I haven’t written all weekend and I’ve had a great weekend! SO hang in there if you really care about me.

I’ve got so many things I want to write about I don’t know where to start. I guess that reinforces the point that “girls are like spaghetti and guys are like waffles”. Do you understand that? I find that quite amusing and true at the same time. Girls thinking is messy and all over the place, yet guys thinking involves one thing at a time.

I learned that at Love Actually 3. Love Actually looks at God’s plan for purity in dating. It is the 3rd year they have held Love Actually and I have went every single year and it’s been great, getting out of school, home and just spend time with christ followers all around hong kong from different churches.

love actually poster

I will put a group picture up as soon as I can get my hands on one, but for now. This will do. Love Actually was special. It started on friday night where we started with amazing worship, talked about what “Love” was, and just got to know each other. (Oh by the way, I had a great day at school before love actually, I was listening in every class, taking notes and was very attentive which is very rare for those who know me!) Saturday morning after breakfast and worship, we talked about “how to treat em right.” It was interesting and refreshing hearing everyone’s expectations of their future husband or the person they want to date. We played some games afterwards, but unfortuantly Nanda and I had to leave for different reasons.

Basketball practice on saturday afternoon was good. Didn’t run too much, it was just right. We did shooting, some drills, went over some plays, it was good overall. We got our practice jerseys and I’m starting to feel better about this season. I’m getting excited about playing in our own tournament, in our own gym in a couple of weeks. The way we run out of the locker room with music blasting in the gym, the way we warm up as a team. We are not a “team” yet, as Coach said. But I know we’ll get there through out this season, and when we do, we are going to do great things!

I went straight back to Shatin for love actually after practice, lugging my huge travel bag around. I’m sure people thought I was nuts. It was fun spending time with Levina and Ashley on the way to Kowloon. Just talking about classes, basketball, friends, just life in general! I was definetly speaking chinglish the whole time, trying more on the cantonese side, but sometimes it just doesn’t work out. Heh heh. I got back to the camp site around eight and was able to attend the ‘love and dating’ group session. We talked about how guys think, what we should or should not do, what boundaries we should set for ourselves ahead of time, and many more. Basically all about boys and how we should deal with them. There are a couple of comments during this time that I will not forget, first is one that I made and I reminded every girl that life is so much more than boys. We have so much out there for us but yet we close our mind to the boy we adore, the boy we think is the perfect one, but in the end we end up hurting ourselves.

“Gender Confusion” was good. It is when two of the opposite gender youth leaders come to the opposite genders room and answer any question they are asked. Tim LaTour and Mike Rose came to our girls room. It was so much fun, for us and for them. There were questions asked that they had a tough time answering, there were questions that just didn’t need any explanation. One of the questions that was asked was …

“How do guys talk about sports for so long?”

I lauged at this question.

“there are so much to talk about! How do girls talk about shoes all the time?” -Tim
“There are so many different kinds of shoes!” -The girl
“There are so many different kinds of sports!” -Tim
“but you can’t talk about them for so long! they’re not interesting!” -the girl
“WHAT?? I LOVE sports!” – The rest of us

I would never forget this. Sports is great and i can’t live without sports. I’m not the type of person who knows about each player and their scoring average, etc. But I love watching them and they excite me. I’ve got to say, I was exhausted at this point, I was lying on the floor listenning to everyone, they managed to help me stay awake. The answers to all the questions were interesting, and some of the reactions just made me laugh.

By the time we finished as a group, we had our own little party back in the room. We had sunchips, doritos, M&Ms, Hi-chews, etc. You can tell they’re all junk food, we all sat, listened to music and pigged out – don’t forget – this was midnight and right before we went to bed. So bad for us but one of those times where you just can’t resist. You’ve got to admit you’ve been through it.

Waking up in the morning was definetly hard, Sunday morning it’s been exhausting travelling in and out with public transportation all day on saturday and I definetly needed more sleep but I managed to get up in mist of my eyes trying to close on me. It was the last day, the last couple hours out in the middle of no where, in the mountains, out of all the traffic and craziness. We had a chance to sit up on the mountains and spend quiet time with God. Mike talked to us about Love, forgivness, surrendering. When we sin, we cheat on God, his heart is broken but because of his son Jesus Christ who died for us, we are forgiving through his grace. Mike used his daughter Isabella for example quite a few times, he held her in his arms and told us how much she meant to him. She was Mike’s apple of the eye. He is protective of her and don’t ever want to let her go. She is only one but she knows what sin is, she knows how it’s wrong but she still does it. And that’s what we do, we pretend that nobody will know what we’re doing and we go on doing what we know is wrong. What do you think about that?

During the quiet time, I was looking down onto Shatin from the top of the mountain. I have realized that it is all relative, I was looking at God’s creation. What if someone suddenly destroyed it? His heart would be broken. When we were little, we would go on the beach and all we would do is build Sand Castles. have you ever had someone walk right on it, kick it, or do something that destroys the sand castle that you built? The thing that you spent so long making and you love it! because it’s your creation. If someone breaks it, you are upset. How many times have you tried to teach someone something and they don’t get it? Or they say they have learned it, but they really don’t understand it and make the same mistake over and over again? How many times have teachers taught you stuff but you don’t learn it and do horrible in class? I know I’ve done it more than I can count and it breaks a teachers heart. It’s the same idea. When we sin, we are going away from God’s creation and we have broken His heart. When we don’t listen to what He has to teach us, that breaks his heart.But he wants us to go back to him, his hands are open wide ready for us to come back. And for that guilt we feel, he wants us to throw it all away, give it to him, because he has forgiven us and given us a new life – to start over. So why ruin that and keep making the same mistake again and again?

It was really a good end to Love actually, to be able to sit up on top of the mountain and meditate on God’s words and his teachings for 30 minutes, and have amazing youth pastors along side of us helping us along the way. Some of them have gone to the states for the seminar and I pray that they learn lots and they focus on you God along the way. I thank them for planning this weekend retreat and giving us their time.

My plan was to go home and sleep, do some homework and chill out for the rest of the day. But my planned twisted a little bit. I arrived in stanley, met up with Jarod and Dave and went to Bayside for lunch. Walked in the stanley waterfront for a bit, played cards and just hung out and chatted until about four. All this time, lugging around my huge bag. I decided to go home, rest for a bit and then we decided to go to the flying pan for dinner. It’s been a lazy day and really good to hang out with them. Thanks to you both for making me laugh and letting me have a great time even though I was exhausted and didn’t want to go anywhere. Anyone else would’ve just made me cranky. Heh heh.

First off.. whoever is still reading up to here. Props to you. I am almost done but a couple of things happened today that made me smile and just realize how great our world us. I was on the bus on the way back to stanley today and there were a couple of tourists on the bus. There wasn’t enough seats so i was standing the whole ride. This lovely old man that was a few feet next to me was taking pictures of the view the whole time and smiling to himself. I thought “how great it is to have someone just enjoying the view and the world!” His hat suddenly fell on the floor. There was a lady right in front of him who was standing and just stood there watching him try to get the hat on the floor. He was having trouble, but the lady just stood there. I was a bit disappointed but I bent down and helped him. He gave me a smile and said thanks. He was a stranger but I felt a warmth in his smile and that just made me smile.

Secondly, we were on our way out from the flying pan. I went to pay for our check and this guy was standing there talking to the waiter. I happen to be standing next to them and over heard his conversation.

“hello, Do you need help?” – waiter
“I was here this morning and I ate (this and that) …” – guy
“Yeah..?” – waiter
“I didn’t have enough money to pay so now I am back to pay for it.” – guy

Wow! I was amazed at him. I didn’t know there was still people like this in our real world. We cheat, we cheat from others whether we know its wrong or not. Especially in Hong Kong and in the WanChai district, this is something that I would never ever expect. amazing. I am so amazed and reminded of the great people we have in this world.

Okay.. I am done, just to keep you from dying reading my post. I bet you didn’t even read the whole thing. Haha. That’s okay, tomorrow is a public holiday and it’s great. I will be relaxing, doing homework, going to basketball practice and sleeping. Things are great and I am so thankful for everything!

I am still confused and don’t know what to do about something important. Choosing between two things i love to do is hard. With the pressure from other people, I really don’t know what I should do, but I pray that God will show me the way, what He has planned for me.

I hope ya’ll had a great weekend!

Cheers Jo!

once again..

Bring me joy, Bring me peace. yes I am listenning to that song again. It’s been a good and relaxing day. I woke up late in the morning and layed in bed staring up into the ceiling knowing that I don’t have to do anything or go anywhere for the day. Slowly I woke up, chilled out and did work for the rest of the day. I enjoyed it.

Sigh. But I am quite upset. This weekend I am suppose to go to Love Actually from friday night to sunday afternoon. I have been looking forward to it for the longest time. I have been the last two years and I can’t wait to go again. Until I was told that our first official practice for basketball will be this saturday from five to seven. I thought I had to choose between Love Actually and basketball. It bothered me for quite a while. I’ve figured out that I will go on friday night and come back out saturday morning. I will miss out on alot.. but it’s better than nothing.

I thank Corrie and her parents for inviting me to El Nido, Philipines for Chinese New Year 2007. It’s called Vacation with a purpose, this is the ninth year and the cost is quite expensive with all the activities and the vacation spot they will be at. But they invited me to go for free and knew I would enjoy it. She was so excited to tell me, she knew I would be excited for it which is true. Until she told me the date, I couldn’t stop smiling.. then I was crushed. It is during the week of CNY school holiday, I will be in Okinawa, Japan for Far East Basketball. The El Nido trip will be with Corrie and her family, Wilcox, Dana’s family, Tim, Cindy and many others. I was looking through the brochure and getting more upset along the way. It looks like tones of fun and such a special chance to go on a trip like this. Once again.. basketball is in the way.. Sigh.

I guess these are the sacrifices I have to make for the Varsity Lady Dragons team of HKIS. On the bright side, it looks like it is going to be a crazy year.. this team’s got some potential. Final tryouts tomorrow, I look forward to this season.

Cheers Jo!

fell in love..

Yes. I fell in love, unfortunatly not with a person but with a song. This song was played on Sunday during church. I had to admit during worship I was just singing along, my mind wandered around and I was just tired. At the start of offering time, the worship team started playing this song. I’ve never heard it before but I was captured to the lyrics and the tune of it. I quickly wrote the name of the song on my bulletin so I can find the song and listen to it again.

I was talking to a friend today and helping him/giving advice about his problems. One of his messages made me laugh and reminded me of this song. He said to me “You must be the happiest person alive!”

I’ve been debating whether to post just a part of the lyrics here or the whole song. And I’ve decided to put the whole song because the whole song relates to me very well.

Bring the rain – MercyMe

I can count a million times
People asking me how I
Can praise You with all that I’ve gone through
The question just amazes me
Can circumstances possibly
Change who I forever am in You
Maybe since my life was changed
Long before these rainy days
It’s never really ever crossed my mind
To turn my back on you, oh Lord
My only shelter from the storm
But instead I draw closer through these times
So I pray

Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings You glory
And I know there’ll be days
When this life brings me pain
But if that’s what it takes to praise You
Jesus, bring the rain

I am Yours regardless of
The clouds that may loom above
Because you are much greater than my pain
You who made a way for me
By suffering Your destiny
So tell me what’s a little rain
So I pray

Every little word of that song matched me so well. Especially the first part of the song, it relates to me so much that I am shocked. Every time I listen to the lyrics or read the lyrics, I am reminded of how much God has provided us. Even though these days, i’ve had quite alot of times when I’m upset, annoyed or just out of it. There are times when I don’t want to talk to anyone and I will be cranky and find excuses to be annoyed. God has always been there and somehow shows me that there’s something out there that will make me happy. There’s something out there more important that what you’re fussing over. He surprises me in so many ways.

I wait for the day I will be with Him. Running up to him with hands wide open, his words, his comfort. It will feel like Home. Nothing else would matter but Him. There are no words to describe my love for Christ.

Cheers Jo!