It amazes me the inability to grow up for some people. What happened, was eight years ago, not to talk about what a small thing it was. We were friends, we enjoyed each others presence even if we were ten years old and enjoyed fighting over things.

I have always thought the reason for what you did was another until today. Funny the reason that I had in mind was more logical and reasonable then the actual one. I forgive you for what you did, but years after, you’re still holding the same grudge?

I try to apologize, I try to befriend you, but all I get is ignorance and hatred. I don’t really care anymore, but it really amazes me how immature one can be. Kinda makes me wonder if we will ever be somewhat friends again.

The whole thing is really quite entertaining.

Sometimes in life we just got to let go and move on. Especially years down the road, these are the times where we look back and laugh at how stupid we were, yet laugh at how important it was to us back in the day. At some point, we will all grow up in one way or another. It’s just a matter of when.

Cheers,

I had the chance yesterday to attend the ICA church in Macau. Having been to the ECC church for the past few years, it was a little strange not to be in the ECC enviornment but it was very nice. Having also finished the SATs this past Saturday, I was very excited to go to Macau though it would only be a day trip.

Waking up early in the morning, knowing soon I’ll be out of HK enjoying the beauty of Macau was a nice feeling. ICA Macau was a small church, but very welcoming. When we walked in, my parents and I were immediatly welcomed by the Senior Pastor of the church. Worship was good, being in a place where there are no one I know near me (except for my parents), being in a unfamiliar place praising God.

There were definitely a few surprises as well which made it all the better. I will continue praying for God to work in my life as well as others. Pastor Olinto’s sermon was one that I needed to hear, to reinforce my faith. The day before, I was talking to a friend about faith and doubting the holy spirit, doubting ourselves and our faith.

The reason we doubt all leads back to not knowing God’s word, not knowing God well enough. we could go to youth group, go to church and act like everything is well, but if we don’t spend time  on our own reading God’s word, we’re always going to be doubting.

Faith is like driving a car at night with the headlights on. It only allows you to see your life up to a certain point, then it’s dark again. If you stop your car and stay put, you’re never going to go further. You have to keep it moving in order to see what’s next. When you stop, you start doubting.

Have you ever tried walking through a dark underground tunnel with no lights? This underground tunnel wasn’t just a straight in and out. It was like a maze, there were stairs, and exits leading to the different parts of the park that we were in. Except some of the exits were blocked with a gate. It’s exactly like our journey with Christ. You only had minimal amount of light (with the phone) to keep going a little bit further, but you can’t see the end of the tunnel. Sometimes you astray and instead of walking straight to the end, you go up and down the stairs and find different temptations and walk on a different journey only until you find out the end of THAT journey is blocked with a gate, only to go back and trust all over again.

Christ is like our first love. It’s important to keep it going, to read his words, to spend time with him so the relationship doesn’t get dull and boring. There is no short cut to the end of the road, to the end of the journey. We have to live life not questioning but taking each opportunity that comes our way to reach out to others and to show them God’s love.

If only I can go to Macau more often.  It is such a beautiful place.

Have a good week,

I’ve been quite a loser lately and reading Grey’s Anatomy quotes. I enjoy them, the funny ones, the inspirational ones, it’s a great show. I came across this one quote the other day and can’t stop thinking about the accuracy of it.

“Communication. It’s the first thing we really learn in life. Funny thing is, once we grow up, learn our words and really start talking the harder it becomes to know what to say. Or how to ask what we really need.” – Dr. Meredith Grey

When we were young, still unable to speak, only able to kick and cry, we were probably excited and looking forward to learning how to speak so we can tell people how we feel and talk to them instead of trying to play charades with them.

It’s quite frustrating thinking about the fact that the more we grow, the harder communication becomes. Half the time, we don’t know what to say, so we just boil it in until we spill. Until we can’t take it any longer, and we break down. Sometimes I don’t even know what’s wrong, but because we’re not sure how to express our feelings, it gets to us and it hurts.

I’m not sure where I’m going with this.. but just thought it’s interesting.

Things have been pretty crazy, been dealing with some stuff, hopefully things will settle down. But until Christmas, or perhaps after college applications, it’ll probably still be the same ol’ craziness.

I apologize in advance for any bad behavior I might have that you might come across.

Cheers,

 

We have just gone past our 1 month into senior year. I know many people are feeling stressed already, but looking at this picture on my dragonnet gives me a sense of peace. We all look great, though we are all dressed in different colors, it still shows the bonding of our class. The greatness of our class.

College application process has began and many of us are filling in green sheets, pink sheets, writing essays, man it sure is annoying but once we recieve that letter of acceptance we have been waiting for all our life- it’s all worth it. Soon enough, we will be off on our own, attending classes without anyone forcing us to, and enjoying ourselves away from Home.

Senior projects. One of the fun and memorable events of senior year. Two friends and I have thought of an idea of what we would like to pursue. I am really looking forward to working on this if everything goes as planned.

While we’re in the process of searching for colleges, we wonder to ourselves, I’ve studied for more than 12 years now but what have I gotten out of it? What do I want to keep pursuing in the future? Or maybe we have no idea, aka. undeclared. It’s a frustrating and confusing time for all of us.

Don’t stress out and enjoy the year.

Cheers,
Joanne Lam

I have been wanting to write about In Your Face ever since I got home Saturday night. But there is so much to write about that I don’t know where to start. Just a little earlier today, when Levina asked me about my prayer time during worship Saturday night- I just then found a description for how I had felt for a part of the night.

When the youth pastors went around praying for us with The Vine Band playing in the background, I layed my head on Tim’s shoulder and let him speak to me. I stopped thinking and let God do the speaking. With my head resting on Tim, tears started rolling down my cheeks. Before I knew it, I was crying out to him. I just wanted to hold on to the moment, Hold on to Him, hug tight and never let go.

It felt like God was holding me. He spoke through me and held me tight through Tim. It was like he was saying, just cry, let everything out because I am here and you don’t have to worry. You don’t have to pretend to be fine.

The warmth and the secureness I felt was incredible.

“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:6-7

In Christ I pray,
Joanne Lam